42

This is the face of bipolar depression on its birthday. 

  

There is no way to control how you feel with this disease. There are ways to suppress the feelings and how you choose to act on them, but you never know what you will feel like from one moment to the next. 

I have been so blessed today. From waking up to a hilarious birthday card from my dad in my caking table, to walking into my office fully prestinely decorated by my sister… 

  
The well wishes and love on social media. The surprise visit from my husband and he and our son  bringing us Dickies BBQ for lunch

  
 The calls from singing Grammys  and in laws, through all of it I have held in tears like a champ and shed some when no one was looking. I wish I didn’t feel like dying inside, but I do. 

I am going to continue to press through this amazing day of my birth as its also the day I gave birth to my daughter 24 years ago. Tonight we all go to dinner to celebrate her, and it’s going to look amazing on the surface, and really that’s what matters. 

Right?

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3 thoughts on “42

  1. I Love you Shann. I am hoping today will be a better day for you. I wish I could be there to give you a big hug. I am always here for you, to listen, to pray, to be a friend.

  2. Happy Birthday! I wish you could find something that would help to elevate your mood. But there is an expression that apparently you follow. FAKE IT UNTIL YOU MAKE IT!

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