Wednesday begins the Lenten season and while I am in no way catholic, when I was introduced to the Reformed traditions I started taking on some of them faithfully and some not so much. Well, social media has been “the big one” and it seems like it gets harder and harder to stay off the stupid sites I frequent and this year is probably the hardest so far. I’m not happy about disconnecting, at all. I would go so far as to saying I’m almost mad at the idea, even though it’s that attitude that reaffirms my need to ditch this platform.
But why do I do it?
If I’m begrudgingly giving up something I’m clearly addicted to, why am I choosing that thing to give up? I mean, is it like tithing in the sense that you don’t have to give anything but you want to give of your first fruits as unto the Lord? I don’t have to give up social media for lent for 40 days, but I choose it because it’s a bloody sacrifice in my life. Social media is a huge crutch that I cling to and quite honestly, I seek it more than Christ and I know that is why it’s “the thing” I need to give up.
It’s just hard.
It’s more habitual than anything really. And with everything happening in our lives right now, my daughter finishing chemotherapy next week and our spring break trip to Mexico coming up, these are things I want to celebrate with my friends!! I have no real friends outside of social media, I really don’t. I feel like I’m going to be sitting there in silence all day doing nothing to occupy my time outside of my work and mom duties, and I’m not happy about it.
That all being said I will end this with the truth that even Jesus wasn’t too happy about having to take on the sin of every deplorable in the world and even He plead with the Father like “hey umm if I don’t have to do this, I’d be okay with that. But imma do what you need me to because I love them”.
That’s basically me today.
I know I don’t have to do this Lord but I am going to because I know it will draw me closer to you, where I need to be. It’s going to hurt at first and I will probably find other things to do to kill the time but my intent is to seek you first. I am praying that this time will be used to draw closer to you and away from the garbage this world is sucking me in to. I’m sorry if I’m mad about it today, I don’t think anyone gets excited about making difficult sacrifices in their lives, maybe I’m wrong and I need to check my heart.
Speaking of check your heart, where is John Crist these days?